I’ve been absent and I am so sorry! I’m not really sorry but I am really sorry. I’ve spent the last couple months learning about my personality after taking some personality tests. Myers-Briggs Types I am an INFJ and I’ve been obsessed with learning all about them and I have yet to find any kind of description, story, traits, quotes, whatever we want to call them that are not something about me. It’s like I found a book all about me and my struggles and it’s been the best feeling in the world! I’ve learned the INFJ personality is one of the rarest of the personalities and is probably the reason I have felt so very misunderstood my entire life. INFJs are so rare that most have never met one!
All those times someone let me know I was weird……Hell yes I am weird! I am like no one you’ve ever met, probably! And 2 years ago when I also thought I was weird it made me sad, terribly sad, because I was so different, I just couldn’t fit in anywhere and it broke me, it crushed me when people would tell me I am weird. I didn’t want to be weird, I wanted to be liked. I kept hearing the word weird and making the word a negative word. It’s NOT a negative word! I now embrace the word! My favorite word is actually Unique. I’ve had someone call me that for the last decade and yes it hurt my feelers for most of it as well until I discovered I really am unique! It’s such a good thing to me now! I do NOT want to follow the crowds and keep up with the Jones’s, I want to be me and do it proudly and I do just that!!
My reaction now when others point out my uniqueness? Damn right I am different, and I’ll never be forgotten either because of it!
I have a hard time writing because I find myself just complaining about the world while I desperately try to save it. I know I can’t save the world but dammit I am going to keep trying! If I can save myself I can save someone else. And if all I needed to do was mind my own business and realize that the only one I get to leave this world with is me and I better get along with me the best way I can then I am happy to spread that along to the rest of the world.
But then again, I now realize that I am different from others, I have the most misunderstood personality in the world and I’ve been writing in this blog trying to help others find themselves and I have been expecting others to understand the things I write about and sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn’t.
I will continue my quest to find others like me in hopes that we can unite and help save the world from all this madness and chaos of negative emotions and toxicity, all from our rooms though because INFJs are introverts… HA HA HA HA! I could spend the rest of my life in my room only to go out once in a while for a concert or 6. An introvert who loves concerts, where there are tons of people? Such a contradiction I am. I can explain that thought another time.
My friends, be prepared for me to ask you to take personality tests so that I can understand you better. And if you want to know me better, then pay attention to what I write about!