Life has been pretty busy lately and it’s been different. Therapy has been such a blessing for all that I’ve been going through. For those that haven’t read from the beginning there was a week in February where I had so much happen to me I wasn’t sure if I could handle it all. I had/still have tumors in my body, my dad died and I found out days later from the funeral home and one of my children is facing federal drug charges. All of it happened within 4 days and the first thing I did was make an appointment with a therapist and she has been amazing.
I’m thoroughly grateful to have found her to guide me through this journey, it has really helped me so much with understanding what happened to me as a child.
I have started to realize while in therapy, it’s highly likely that I will not see anyone in my family again. Not because I don’t want to because I’d love to have a family that is encouraging and supportive, I’d really love for it to be my family that fills that space. Sadly, the deeper we go into my own trauma the more I realize how difficult it would be for them to look at their own actions and see the harm they caused which is imperative to reconciliation.
We hired an attorney to help us with my dad’s estate because his executor is not doing what he’s supposed to be doing and my dad’s things are not going where they are supposed to be going. There is some shady stuff going on with it and I have a plethora of people working on evidence and I’m looking forward to karma taking over.
I have never understood why people turn greedy when someone dies especially if they left a will. Follow the will and do what it says but so many people think they can change it or do what they want and not follow instructions. I’ve watched so many people do that and then karma comes along and they end up suffering.
These people think they are punishing me for not being there with my dad which isn’t their decision to make. These people are spending his money and selling his things to punish me and they don’t realize the consequences they will have to face for doing it.
My health is improving so much it’s incredible and at the same time it makes me sad knowing my dad could still be alive if he would have tried the method of medicine I suggested the first time he had cancer. I sent him info about the protocol I’m using and while it peaked his interest he didn’t do it because it wasn’t what his doctor recommended. He knew the medical establishment was as much of a joke as the government and he still did everything they suggested as far as his treatment. He was scared it wouldn’t work while knowing what he was doing was not going to work.
I still haven’t written his obituary. It has been hard to figure out what to write. A regular obituary is so boring, he deserves a well written one describing his life and that will be hard for me to do as a person who he didn’t spend a lot of time with. I could write about my life with him and maybe I will do that. It’s definitely been a challenge.
My health has been improving since starting Ozone therapy. I’m believing more and more every day that I’m going to be alright. I have been able to feel the entire tumor in my breast and it is about the size of an egg. The one in my armpit is maybe the size of a blueberry. I am definitely getting better and it’s been an interesting experience.
I am eventually going to have to figure something else to write about if I ditch these tumors.
Until next time.
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