I just cannot imagine how my life would be today had I not gone through what I went through! I know, it’s a little bit vague that’s for sure, but I seriously look back on my life and I never in a million years would imagine I am doing what I am doing today. Am I doing something super exciting and extraordinary, you ask? I suppose the answer depends on what you’re definition of super exciting and extraordinary is!
I also look back at that first paragraph and think that it sounds like a pretty grateful statement since I used to think I had gone through some serious tragedies and misfortunes and lots of bad luck, and I did actually, but I don’t see them that way anymore. I don’t see misfortune and grief and bullshit that I used to think was constantly thrown at me. Most of it is gone and although it still surrounds me and will never go away I have figured out my own way of dealing with it so that it doesn’t affect me like it used to.
Life really isn’t that hard. It really isn’t. I sure made mine hard though, for a long time! I think a lot of us do! I also don’t know if we do it on purpose, I am sure some do, but not everyone does.
I could probably argue this until I am blue in the face and there will still be someone out there who has an excuse as to why their life is so hard and I am sure that some are truly legitimate excuses but for the majority of us out there who are MORE than capable of doing some self work and some learning of new habits and maybe ditching some unneeded expenses or whatever it takes to get to some place different, there really are no excuses except the ones we make up to keep from going where we need to go.
I know I have written about this before, I am a stickler for accountability and bettering myself in hopes that someone will catch on to what I am doing and run with it in their own way. I am sure someone else out there is figuring out that life isn’t really that hard unless we make it hard and I commend that person for figuring it out! It’s not hard!!
There are wayyyyyyyy too many people out there in the world who convince themselves that life truly is hard when it’s really only as hard as we make it! I think we think it’s hard because society and the media have made the world into conveniences instead of goals and working toward them and such. Instant gratification I think is the word I’m looking for. There aren’t many people out there in the world who want to put forth the physical work to make their lives the way they picture it.
The moment we think to ourselves “I can’t” we are absolutely right! It’s a true story. The moment those words come out our mouths we automatically give up on what it was we wanted, never to be completed because the mind has been closed to any possibilities of it actually working out.
Our minds are the most powerful things out there and we need to be more careful of the thoughts we have. The more negative we are the less we will accomplish what we want to accomplish. I know it sounds ridiculous but it’s absolutely true!
We know we are each capable of doing great things, but a lot of us let fear keep us from accomplishing anything. That fear man, it is a crippler! We cannot let fear stop us from doing anything.
Once we let go of the fear and the worry of what everyone else is doing and what everyone else thinks and literally everything that doesn’t apply to our dreams and goals, those dreams and goals will come flooding to you faster than you can even imagine. But first, we must let go of fear. Until then our dreams and goals will continue to stay out of our reach.
I know what you’re saying, you don’t believe me. That’s quite okay because I believe it. It worked for me and all it took was for me to take that first extremely scary step. It took me a really long time to take that step and keep taking them, even when I started to give up as things weren’t going my way, I kept taking steps, little steps, big steps, sometimes I stopped and just stood still instead of going backwards. The point is I kept going!
When it comes to the Universe there isn’t a set time when your dreams and goals will start coming true all I know is the longer I stood back in fear the more I realized they just weren’t coming. I had to take that first step. No one could take it for me even though many tried to help me out, with advice, money, a place to stay and support. But nothing happened for me until I stepped out of fear and took that first step and told myself I can do this.
My journey has been a lot of fun. I have learned so much and continue to learn every day. It’s been sad as I have lost a lot of people in my life, some because they refuse to understand the process of my growth and some because they just couldn’t keep up and were almost holding me back. It was hard on me to lose people but I never let them go I just can’t stop and wait. Keep up or stay stuck. I refuse to stay stuck anymore. I have things I want to do and I am going to do them regardless of what anyone else says.
My Life, My Story 
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