Category: awareness

Just Go For It
Posted by Just Bobbie on in awareness, health, life, love, SELF-HELP

Just Go For It

Life has gotten so insanely different for me than it used to be! I think it has had so many drastic changes in it that I don’t even know if I could ever really be the person that I was 5 years ago let alone 2 years ago!

When I started doing all this work on myself it was for one purpose only. To get my relationship back. Definitely had tunnel vision going with that purpose as I usually do when I am passionate about something. I think it is an INFJ thing but could be just an OCD thing, I don’t entirely know but I do know the last 2 1/2 years of my life has been an absolute whirlwind of breakthroughs and really great things.

I can write for days and add 15 different stories into this one blog, so I will try really hard to stay on the subject at hand and keep my storytelling to a bare minimum. No promises though. Ha ha ha! INFJ’s have no short version of anything.

My point for writing today is to tell you all to just go for it. All those things that you dream of doing or being? Just do them! I know it sounds so simple and easy! Trust me I know it is not that simple and it’s definitely not easy. At least it wasn’t for me. But I think, for myself, the tunnel vision I had for fixing my relationship kept me going and focused on continuing to do the work needed, because I was willing to do WHATEVER work was needed to get my relationship back.

I was/am one of those that have huge dreams and plans and I want to do them ALL at once and miraculously change my life in just one day. Fortunately for me, had I not gone on this adventure I would have never learned that our lives just cannot change immediately and I have learned from my own experience, I just CANNOT change my life all in one day. I fail every time! I think it took this little journey I am on to finally make me realize that I couldn’t just change my life the exact moment I decided to. It’s actually taken 28 months and counting.

I say “and counting” because I’ve come to realize that our lives are ALWAYS changing. They really are, some of us want to stay the same and some of us want different lives for ourselves. But when we sit and think about it nothing ever stays the same. Nothing. So we can either choose to embrace the changes or we can choose to stay stuck in our little mental ruts that we get into because our lives aren’t going exactly the way we want them to.

I found this little quote a while ago and it really resonates with where I am currently in my life. “If you are always looking for yellow cars you will always see yellow cars.” I placed it below because it really is a great quote.

What do you focus on?

The horrible things the news shows us all day long? The negativity that is on social media all day long? The Toxic Tammy that you work with? The spouse that doesn’t listen to you? Do you focus on your spouse/partner leaving you? Spend some time thinking about this. Sit for an hour or longer and actually listen to the things going through your head, write them down. I challenge you to put them on paper and actually read them, look at them, be honest about it to yourself.

Life really isn’t as hard as we make it out to be. It really isn’t. Thoughts are an extremely powerful force and I promise you if you continuously think bad thoughts, the outcome will be just as you thought it would be. Now with that said….. the opposite is also true!! If we consistently think good thoughts and good outcomes we will actually get them. We really will. It may not happen immediately (this is the kicker) but it WILL happen, I want to promise you this outcome but even if I promise you good will happen to you, if you truly do not believe it will happen, it won’t and then you’ll call me a liar. If you continue to find faults in every single thing that is presented to you, in the rut is where you’ll stay stuck. I do promise that.

So what is keeping you from achieving your dreams? Money? Or your lack of effort to put in the work to get the money? The time you say you don’t have because you spend 5 hours a day on social media telling everyone how to live their lives? I’ve learned there is no magic button in life. There is no one that is going to save you and make your life better, you must do the work yourself. I can promise you the work is very hard and very, very worth it!!

I am no professional, nor am I any kind of expert. I just know my own story and what does and doesn’t work for me personally. If I can help someone else achieve their dreams then I’ve done what I came here to do. Rock on my pretties!

P.S. I got that relationship back and it’s even better. Why? We are doing the work. Both of us.

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Every Moment is a Test
Posted by Just Bobbie on in awareness, health, life, relationship, SELF-HELP

Every Moment is a Test

I was playing around in my blog and realized I have 12 unfinished pieces of writings. Today I decided to finish one of them.

Recently I have been presented with things from my past that I want to get passed or in more accuracy I just want to go away and not have to deal with anymore. I suppose everyone has the past come up at some point in their lives, I am being presented with people who I have tried very hard to remove because of the battles they fight.

I have spent the last two years trying to change the way I think and heal what I think was an unhealthy relationship with myself. I say with myself because if we really think about it our outside world can and usually is a reflection of our inside world and if our outside relationships are not that great maybe it is time to look in that mirror and finally address our own issues.

My inside world for a very long time was anxiety ridden and full of fear because I spent so much time avoiding my relationship with myself I could barely function in any kind of relationship outside of myself. I went from job to job, relationship to relationship, friend to friend and so on, you get the picture right? I am sure most of you can relate.

Lately I keep having these little tests come up with me and I am really having a hard time deciphering them, so much I just want to hide from the world and just not deal with them at all. These tests that I am faced with are tests of my own strength and my own boundaries with other toxic individuals and the battles they are fighting with themselves.

We should all know that we are a reflection of the 5 people we are with the most, we should. I didn’t realize it until I started looking at myself and the things I just didn’t like about my thoughts and actions. Once I realized I didn’t like what was going on inside me I decided to look at just who I was around the most. Guess what I discovered about most of the individuals I was with the most? ALL PESSIMISTIC COMPLAINERS!!!!! Chronic complainers I believe is the actual word I read the other day on this subject.

Complaining is a toxic trait and will turn a very healthy mindset into an unhealthy mindset quite quickly without any realization of it happening. Luckily I have learned and grown so much that I welcome constructive criticism and I also will give it when asked, sometimes when not asked. I am working on not just throwing my learning out there as some just aren’t ready or just don’t want to.

The thing I have the hardest time with is voluntarily letting someone know that I can’t be around them anymore because they are toxic. I wondered why and then it dawned on me that we can’t really tell toxic individuals that they are toxic. I mean we can and some of us do but there’s always such a fine line with this and we just can’t tell if that person respects you enough to say thank you or fuck you when constructive criticism is given.

The things I write about and the things I post on Instagram are all meant to make us look at ourselves. I write about things that I know everyone relates to and I write about people I actually know including myself. Most of my thoughts and ideas come from things I have learned while out and about with the people I am with the most or people I just can’t be around anymore.

I never want to point fingers at anyone and make them think they are a pile of shit or bad individuals because I don’t think people really are bad or pieces of shit. I write about my own journey and the things I have learned about others while I am only focused on learning about myself with the hopes that someone will say “holy shit Bobbie I do that, I complain all the time, maybe that is why I “think” my life is so miserable.”

I only want to write so that others will take a look at just themselves. I never want to write and have you think things like “oh yeah so and so is so toxic they do need to take a look at themselves”. Yeah that is NOT what I mean by the things I write. I want you to say holy shit I do that and then research like mad how to not be like that. It’s very easy to blame others for our shortcomings but whose fault is it really?

I honest and truly believe the whole entire world can be such a beautiful place if we only focused on our own insides and not everyone else’s. I would really love nothing more than to just take those I know and write about all the things they do and say that make their lives “miserable” but I am not to that point yet and it really isn’t my job to point out others flaws even if that is what they do to the people around them. All I can do is keep looking in my own mirror and keep myself on the love and kindness train.

My job is not to treat people tit for tat, my job is to love and only love. I’m not a professional at all I am just a girl who is finally realizing that I control my world and it wasn’t as hard as I thought regardless of what “they” say. If you like what I write about please share it, follow, comment, you know all that good stuff that everyone loves! Rock On My Pretties!

Focus
Posted by Just Bobbie on in awareness, health, life, love, relationship, SELF-HELP

Focus

We live the life we want to live. We make the effort to have the things we want to have or we don’t have them. We either complain about everything we don’t have or we are grateful for the things we do have. We all have a mental list of priorities for ourselves that we don’t really talk about but our lives revolve around that list of priorities….

My priorities are to have a healthy mentality instead of a toxic one. So if I have suddenly stopped talking to anyone or slowly stepped away from those that I used to keep in constant contact with it could be because maintaining a connection isn’t one of my priorities any more. It could mean that somehow my connection to you is detrimental to my mental health. It is nothing personal against anyone but my mental health and my life is most important to me and if that is something that is hard to understand then that right there tells me that my decision to walk away was the best decision I could make for myself.

One day it will be understood when you are faced with the same decision. Not until it happens to you will you fully understand why some people do the things they do. Until it happens all you can say is that you do get it but in reality you don’t get it and will not get it until it happens to you. I would rather not hear anything about anything in my life until you have experienced the exact same things in your life.

We are all just winging it, why go around and tell other people how to live when you yourself have no idea what is going on in your own life. Change your focus to you and only you, what is going on inside you and why you feel that way as it pertains to you and go from there, only with you. We are not put on this earth to go around telling others what they do are wrong and they should do it this way because in all actuality we don’t really know what we are doing ourselves.