Welcome to my unique little world, where I share bits of my life and update everyone on my health journey.
I need to do a complete update as I feel like I repeat the same things in each chapter and don’t really explain in depth what’s going on.
I’m learning about myself in therapy and I’m finding out that I have some pretty profound protective traits that I utilize daily to make sure I have safety in my body and mind. I learned pretty early in life it wasn’t safe to speak fully so I only spoke as much as I needed to and I didn’t notice until I started breaking down my life.
Anyways, I was laying here in bed reflecting on a social media post I made yesterday that has taken off with a mixture of responses. I made it in a cancer protocol group trying to find others who may be experiencing what I am experiencing currently and it involves the tumor “exiting” the body through the skin. It hasn’t happened but I do think it’s going to and I tried to ask for others experiencing this and was met with a lot of fear mongering before the people I was looking for showed up.
The fear mongering in this world is completely bonkers. I mean, we are living in a world where it feels like hardly anyone has a clue what is happening around them and within them but have no problem telling others how to live.
The amount of people on my post who were desperately trying to get me to see an oncologist was ridiculous. People who aren’t even going through the same thing I am. People who believe everything they are told and have never done a bit of research on their own. When I got up this morning I had over 15,000 views and over 144 comments divided fairly equally of fear and encouragement. The fear came from people who aren’t even in the group because they are battling but there to support a family member suffering. The encouragement came from those who are going through the same thing as me.
When did we start ignoring our own lives so much that we have to dictate others lives? I’m all about taking advice from someone who has done their own work and has the experience I’m looking for but it seems there are “experts” out there who have no clue about themselves and still choose to tell others how to live.
With all this stuff I’m going through I do not have the time to even respond to people like this. I don’t even want them near me.
Fear is a powerful emotion that causes hell in our bodies and the world is full of it.
It’s frustrating!
Life is so beautiful and it’s truly only as difficult as we make it and some of you out there make it very hard for others because of your own fear. It’s your fear. Keep it to yourself.
Have a fantastic day. I’m going to!
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