Have you ever had someone in your life who keeps tabs on your life better than you do? I’m pretty sure we have all had something similar at some point in our life, whether the intentions were good or bad we’ve all been subjected to someone who was minding our business more than their own.... Continue Reading →
When I moved closer to Boise in 2009 I was excited to be closer to the city that held most of the states concerts. Music meant a lot to my brother so to honor him I chose to attend concerts. Tickets were out of my budget so I chose a few special shows to attend... Continue Reading →
I crashed this last week, it was quietly sneaking up on me and when it caught up, I fell. Hard. For those new to my site, I created this space so I could share my thoughts and feelings about losing my brother to suicide and how it’s affected me, and to share the things that... Continue Reading →
Looking back through my life and trying to figure out how and where to start my story has been really difficult for me to do. It would be easy to write out that my dad abandoned my brother and I and my mom completely ignored us unless there was an audience but that doesn’t go... Continue Reading →
Gosh, it’s sure been a while since I’ve written. It’s like the further I go into healing from my childhood the less I write about it. I end up frozen and defeated and feeling less than alive, and quite often wonder if my brother made the better decision by ending his suffering. Knowing what I... Continue Reading →
Today is September 17, 2023. Today would have been my parents 52nd wedding anniversary had they stayed married. I was unaware about the date of their marriage as they divorced when I was 4 but was informed about it in 1994, by my dad when I picked my wedding date for my first marriage which... Continue Reading →
I wonder how many individuals out there in the world are aware of the actions that they make. I wonder how many realize that there are children watching them. Children who look up to them and children who want to be just like them one day. Children idolize others and imitate often while pretending to... Continue Reading →
Titled appropriately as great descriptions of myself from myself. Oh, don’t try to tell me I’m not all of those things because I know I am. I have a rare personality which makes me appear to be all of those things to those who don’t know me, I used nice terms compared to what I’ve... Continue Reading →
It’s a hard day for me today. No special meaning to the date that I can think of, I’m just struggling with life. I’m sure I am not the only one. I read about it all the time on social media. After almost a two year hiatus I created a Facebook account, after three weeks... Continue Reading →
I know we don't talk like we used to and although I should not feel horrible about it, I do because I care, more than I should. It's not that I don't like you anymore, that's not it at all, my friends will always be my friends and I truly dislike no one. For the... Continue Reading →
My Life, My Story 