Looking back through my life and trying to figure out how and where to start my story has been really difficult for me to do. It would be easy to write out that my dad abandoned my brother and I and my mom completely ignored us unless there was an audience but that doesn’t go... Continue Reading →
Gosh, it’s sure been a while since I’ve written. It’s like the further I go into healing from my childhood the less I write about it. I end up frozen and defeated and feeling less than alive, and quite often wonder if my brother made the better decision by ending his suffering. Knowing what I... Continue Reading →
Happy Saturday! How is everyone feeling? This little meme made me giggle due to how much truth is in it. Not sure how many know my story on why I decided to join the horse community and the major things I’ve learned about myself since fully immersing in it. My employment history consists of an... Continue Reading →
My brother took his life in 2009, he had finally had enough of the noise running through his head. He’d spent his whole life protecting me from the pain he’d endured without knowing I suffered as well. Since his passing I’ve learned the truth about the trauma he endured. I was traumatized too but because... Continue Reading →
My Dearest Brother, It’s been so long since we’ve had one of our talks I decided to continue them the only way I know how and that’s through writing. Remember when we were kids and you made such great efforts to shield me from the bad things in life? I never understood the true meaning... Continue Reading →
Today is September 17, 2023. Today would have been my parents 52nd wedding anniversary had they stayed married. I was unaware about the date of their marriage as they divorced when I was 4 but was informed about it in 1994, by my dad when I picked my wedding date for my first marriage which... Continue Reading →
As an adult child of toxic parents, the best advice I could give another person would be to look at others as they are, not how you wish they would be. As children we tend to put our parents on pedestals and dismiss every toxic behavior they have, because we are taught at an early... Continue Reading →
It appears I’m no longer motivated to write, I want to write, I want to share my thoughts but I don’t because I seem to be just as toxic as the world I complain about so I don’t because it makes me seem like a hypocrite. I’ve had a lot of weird things happen that... Continue Reading →
Have you ever had one of those days where it feels like it would be better to not exist? A day where you wonder where your loved ones would be if you never existed in the first place? A day where you regret your entire life? A day where you wonder why you are here... Continue Reading →
Do you know a person who is exceptionally quiet? The shy one, the wallflower, the one who just doesn’t say much? I think most of us have met someone like that. I think a lot of humans out there look at the quiet one as the weaker of the group, it seems easy to do.... Continue Reading →
My Life, My Story 