As I’m learning more about how this dis-ease works I have been able to reflect on the signs I missed. I’ve been reading that cancer actually starts 8-10 years before a lump ever forms, I’ve also read a lot about it being a metabolic disorder, and a big part of it is living in fight... Continue Reading →
If you’re finding this for the first time and would like to catch up I’ve started putting chapter numbers in the titles to make it easier to follow. We last left off in November 2025 where I was brainstorming what to do with my life so I could have something to leave my children. My... Continue Reading →
Have you ever had someone in your life who keeps tabs on your life better than you do? I’m pretty sure we have all had something similar at some point in our life, whether the intentions were good or bad we’ve all been subjected to someone who was minding our business more than their own.... Continue Reading →
I crashed this last week, it was quietly sneaking up on me and when it caught up, I fell. Hard. For those new to my site, I created this space so I could share my thoughts and feelings about losing my brother to suicide and how it’s affected me, and to share the things that... Continue Reading →
I have few memories of my parents marriage, my brother and I were young when our dad left, I was 4 he was 6. I have one cherished memory that I use to hold on to the belief that my dad was once an amazing father and loved his family, it’s actually one of my... Continue Reading →
Looking back through my life and trying to figure out how and where to start my story has been really difficult for me to do. It would be easy to write out that my dad abandoned my brother and I and my mom completely ignored us unless there was an audience but that doesn’t go... Continue Reading →
My brother took his life in 2009, he had finally had enough of the noise running through his head. He’d spent his whole life protecting me from the pain he’d endured without knowing I suffered as well. Since his passing I’ve learned the truth about the trauma he endured. I was traumatized too but because... Continue Reading →
It appears I’m no longer motivated to write, I want to write, I want to share my thoughts but I don’t because I seem to be just as toxic as the world I complain about so I don’t because it makes me seem like a hypocrite. I’ve had a lot of weird things happen that... Continue Reading →
Do you know a person who is exceptionally quiet? The shy one, the wallflower, the one who just doesn’t say much? I think most of us have met someone like that. I think a lot of humans out there look at the quiet one as the weaker of the group, it seems easy to do.... Continue Reading →
Titled appropriately as great descriptions of myself from myself. Oh, don’t try to tell me I’m not all of those things because I know I am. I have a rare personality which makes me appear to be all of those things to those who don’t know me, I used nice terms compared to what I’ve... Continue Reading →
My Life, My Story 