Have you ever had someone in your life who keeps tabs on your life better than you do? I’m pretty sure we have all had something similar at some point in our life, whether the intentions were good or bad we’ve all been subjected to someone who was minding our business more than their own.... Continue Reading →
It Wasn’t Luck
When I moved closer to Boise in 2009 I was excited to be closer to the city that held most of the states concerts. Music meant a lot to my brother so to honor him I chose to attend concerts. Tickets were out of my budget so I chose a few special shows to attend... Continue Reading →
It’s Dark
I crashed this last week, it was quietly sneaking up on me and when it caught up, I fell. Hard. For those new to my site, I created this space so I could share my thoughts and feelings about losing my brother to suicide and how it’s affected me, and to share the things that... Continue Reading →
Memories
I have few memories of my parents marriage, my brother and I were young when our dad left, I was 4 he was 6. I have one cherished memory that I use to hold on to the belief that my dad was once an amazing father and loved his family, it’s actually one of my... Continue Reading →
They started it
Looking back through my life and trying to figure out how and where to start my story has been really difficult for me to do. It would be easy to write out that my dad abandoned my brother and I and my mom completely ignored us unless there was an audience but that doesn’t go... Continue Reading →
Collateral Damage
Gosh, it’s sure been a while since I’ve written. It’s like the further I go into healing from my childhood the less I write about it. I end up frozen and defeated and feeling less than alive, and quite often wonder if my brother made the better decision by ending his suffering. Knowing what I... Continue Reading →
That One Girl
One of the hardest things I’ve had to come to terms with in my life is that I’m the friend that’s often overlooked. I have been my whole life, I should be used to it but thanks to social media and watching people I know interacting online and in person always leaves me feeling a... Continue Reading →
We Can Do It
I wonder how many individuals out there in the world are aware of the actions that they make. I wonder how many realize that there are children watching them. Children who look up to them and children who want to be just like them one day. Children idolize others and imitate often while pretending to... Continue Reading →
Maybe it is You
With the state of the world right maybe it's time to do a little self reflection and make sure all the anger we are throwing out into the world is not really our own insecurities being projected onto others. I have found through my own healing and my own journey of self reflection that sometimes... Continue Reading →
Weird, Awkward and Misunderstood
Titled appropriately as great descriptions of myself from myself. Oh, don’t try to tell me I’m not all of those things because I know I am. I have a rare personality which makes me appear to be all of those things to those who don’t know me, I used nice terms compared to what I’ve... Continue Reading →

